Seven am, small awake and break-dancing on my pillow. At least we’re not calling it six am any more. Kettle on. Small playing with noisiest toy in whole house. The blue cow says moo. The blue cow says moo. The blue cow says moo. The blue cow says moo. The blue cow says moo. Sodding cow. Should we be teaching small that cows are blue? Nope, don’t care. Must remember to do things on list today. Ring someone. Who? Where is list? Not that list. Other list. Why is beloved pretending to be dead under the doona? Make small’s breakfast of hated porridge extra loudly. Success. Breakfast. Drop in on LMF for tea and mini-playdate. Drink tea in LMF’s yard in glorious sunshine. Small hijacks her work phone and sends random blank messages to her clients. To shops. Unsuccessful attempt at buying food or a wedding gift. Home. Wedge spoonfuls of mystery mash into small’s mouth while he tries desperately to pull my top off. He breastfeeds like he’s not been fed for days. He sleeps. Still no sign of list. Pay a bill? Cook something? Yes! Food for a friend, another LMF, who’s just had her fourth baby. Macaroni cheese. Brownies. Soul food for the breastfeeding mama. Find letter reminding me to re-enrol in deferred university course. Will I have time to study next year? Small awake, trying to climb up me to plunge his hands into all the pots on the stove. Pouring rain. Chickens all huddled under one shrub. Overgrown chicks trying in vain to squeeze under Betty’s wings. Very entertaining. Alarm going off? Oh, brownies.
Brownies for the Breastfeeding Mama (and her children)
200 grams of dark eating chocolate
125 grams of unsalted butter
1/2 a cup of brown sugar
1 cup of almond meal
1/4 of a cup of plain flour
160 grams of dark eating chocolate, chopped roughly
80 grams of flaked almonds
Preheat your oven to 180 degrees celsius (160 fan forced).
Grease and line a square tin.
In a medium saucepan, melt the 200 grams of dark chocolate with the butter over low heat, stirring until smooth.
Take off the heat and allow to cool for ten minutes.
Stir in the sugar, eggs, almond meal and flour.
Stir in the chopped chocolate and flaked almonds.
Spread into the tin and bake for 25 minutes, until just firm to touch.
Allow to cool in the tin for ten to fifteen minutes.
Turn onto a wire rack. Turn again and dust with icing sugar.
Cut into as many pieces as you like.
Wrap brownies. Think for the hundredth time how useful it would be to have a big basket to carry food in. Must put that on list. Damn. The list. Ring who? Never mind. Everyone in car. Arrive at house of new baby. Baby is breastfeeding, on the brink of blissful sleep. Her older sisters and brother bounce about. Biggest sister carries small off to play. Tea with our friend. We chat about the uni course she has just finished, the same one I am procrastinating about. Hmm. That puts things in perspective.